Preparation

For all the excitement that has just entered our lives, I know our God can easily take everything away.  I hope we will acknowledge Him and his goodness.  No matter how good or how bad things get, I hope we will remain faithful to him.  There are uncertainties--yes, all the time.  There are certainties--to some limit.  I just hope Young and I really prepare for the unthinkable.  The preparation we need is beyond just the physical and financial means.  Our preparation to sustain true grace through all the good and bad can only come by preparing ourselves when we are at our healthiest and happiest.  Good things are to come and we just haven't really started to fully believe it ourselves.  Let's get ready.

Planting Seeds

There is a saying in Korean that says, "Words become seeds."  Therefore, I would like to spread my seeds.  I wait anxiously about our next step in life.  There is a lot of uncertainty and I cannot help but to drive myself crazy.  After nearing three weeks of marriage, there are a lot of things I realized that I must do and have yet to do.  To make our new family more "official" in the legal terms aside from our marriage certificate is changing my name.  The feminist in me says why change the name?  The lover, the future mother, the partner says we cannot truly be one without my own leap of faith in changing my name.  Of course, no one goes into a marriage expecting separation, but there is the dark reality that we are human in the end and we at times have our  limitations to how much we will give for someone's love.  I hope that we will never come to that.  Young is my best friend.  Young is my family.  Young is my partner.  I would hate to not have him be part of my life and although three years versus the 24 years I spent without him is no comparison, I know his presence has made such a large impact.

Hello world!  We are three weeks shy of becoming an official family.  When I moved down to Philly on April 1st in 2011, we did become somewhat of a family.  After all, I didn't have anyone except Young.  

This is what love does--make you move.

I am excited yet anxious about our next step as a couple and very much nervous about many of the life changing decisions we'll have to make in the weeks and months to come.  There is even talks about relocating across the country.  As I look forward prayerfully, I hope our new family will be filled with much joy and blessings.  (This is so easy to say and to hope for, but to live it is another reality.)  My hope is for our new family to become blessings all around.

One of our earliest photos.  100 days into dating!  Circa 2010